oh guys I’m super sorry that I haven’t been on in like a few weeks (read months.) It’s just that I haven’t really been feeling so great, I’ve been really down and not feeling myself and I just can’t put up a façade of feeling great because I would just be lying and it’s just too tiring and I’m tired of having to pretend that I’m feeling good when all I want to do is shrivel up and not exist for a while.
I just feel so empty right now and I can’t do anything to stop it so I apologise for not being on and not talking to anyone because I do love you guys I just can’t pretend to be fine when I’m not because I always have to do that and I just want a break from it for a while.
I’ll be back eventually hopefully at the end of the month or so maybe a bit longer I have exams on and studying is killing me well me pretending to study and ready fanfictions instead, it’s the stress that is killing me. On the bright side I decided that I am not doing advanced higher history next year, hopefully I’ll be doing something that I can actually pass:/ on the other hand I also decided to take higher English, yeah I officially sold my soul to Satan. hopefully I’ll pass higher Art this year to do advanced higher next year. haha yeah definitely not going to collage next year; although it is a lot closer to home. by that it’s only a 20 minute bus journey rather than an hour one but oh well I’ll be going to uni after next year.
Oh wow didn’t mean for my little apology to become a rant about my life gha sorry:/
but yeah I’m so sorry that I haven’t been on I just fell hollow and nothing is really helping and for those who I speak to and you know who you are I ‘m so sorry I haven’t been I care for you so much I just don’t want to be pretending that I feel super amazing when I feel like crap.
I love you guys your my family, and I’ll be back soon hopefully:)